A enjoyed a second Father's Day with our son G. We had a great day. My little brother and his family came over for a bbq. My parents stopped by but didn't stay very long. My father was not a the celebratory mood, which is understandable. Hopefully with time his heart will heal and he will be able to enjoy Father's Day again. For now, we all understand.
As for A, he had a great day. He was able to spend the whole day with his son. We shared a lot of laughs and enjoyed the hot sun in the pool. G loves swimming with his daddy.
A and I have been through so much in our 12 years together. I remember all the heartache we endured like it was yesterday. I remember all the tears we shared...gosh there were years of sadness. I also remember telling my husband that maybe he would be better off if he would just leave me. In my darkest hours I would think about A and how he was able to have children. I would try to imagine him with another woman and me finding out 'they' were pregnant. Crazy I know...but real life. Infertility was all my fault. I was the reason we had no children. I knew how bad A wanted children and I knew what a great father he would make...so why should I be the one keeping him from his dream. I was serious when I asked him to leave me. I told him that I loved him so much, all I wanted was for him to be happy. I will never forget what he said to me...."you are the reason I want children, I want you to be the mother of my children...no else." His words touched my heart and soul. He also went on to say he could live without children but he could not live without me. I'm tearing up as I think about it. I'm just so blessed to have found such a loving and understanding man. God sure knew what he was doing when he send A my way. A has been my rock all of these years, he has been a wonderful husband...he is my hero.
It's almost surreal how our life is now compared to just a couple of years ago. Our lives are so blessed and so full of life. A's dream has come true.....he has a child, a son and we are still together. A is a father....HAPPY FATHER'S DAY. I must be the luckiest woman...I get to watch A be a father everyday....he is truly the best. I am so proud of him.
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