Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Laid back Christmas....

We had such a laid back Christmas, which was nice! I didn't go anywhere b/c of the girls. My parents hosted Christmas at their house on Christmas Eve but we didn't even make it to that. There was about 40 people there, I was so afraid of the girls catching something. They had a wonderful time and can't wait for us to be able to bring the girls out soon. There is a lot of family waiting to meet them. On Christmas day A took G to his aunt's house and I stayed home with the girls. A called a couple times, I think he missed me...lol. And I know G did, I heard pretty much as soon as they got there he was telling everyone "bye, bye." And "I wann mommy." I thought it was cute but to everyone else it was a little annoying. So A ended up coming home early, G didn't even get to open all his presents there. He sure did make out though and to think his birthday is in Feb., I have toy overload! Seriously, I don't know what to do with them all.

Can I ask all the mom's out there, how the heck to you keep up with all the little pieces or sets of toys? Maybe I'm just being lazy by putting everything in the toy basket, instead of making sure all the pieces are together and there....argh.

Here are a few pics...

Christmas eve



Christmas morning


He can get on it, now only if he can figure out how to pedal...btw, he kissed Tigger, too cute.



My baby...so big



He was so excited...



This is G's favorite gift. I knew he would like it b/c he loves the Wii bowling but geez!!! We played for two hours straight. He is so good at it.


Thursday, December 24, 2009

Some down time...

A and G are out shopping right now. Maybe he is going to get something for me...really though, I don't need or want anything. I'm thankful for what I already have...

I thought I would share a pic of Skyla, just so you can see how small they are.

BTW, their names are Sophia Monet and Skyla Rose. I'm going to delete there names soon but I just wanted to share with you.





NIKKI, I tried to send you an email but it failed...what's your email addy????


And Eliza, thanks for the support. I miss you all but I just couldn't keep up and I felt like a bad friend. :(

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Santa Baby

G and I went to see Santa today. Can you believe this is the best picture....omg, he did not want to sit with Santa. You can also see my hand, I was trying to distract him with a candy cane. Oh well...one day.

New diet...

So I stepped on my scale today and I lost 5lbs since the babies have been here. I needed to lose about 10 but this way is not healthy. I have an appetite I just can't eat...or when I do I don't eat a lot. I'm hungry right now and I still haven't had anything all day. I don't know what's going on...I can't put my finger on my nervousness/anxiety???
G and I are going out for a bit today. Since the girls pretty much just eat and sleep A has been doing great. Maybe getting out with my baby will make me feel better...

I just don't remember these feelings when we brought G home??? Any advice?

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

What's up doc?

The girls had a doctors appt today and they now weigh 5.1# and 4.1#, exactly a pound apart. We also had a visit with their BM and BF. It was an interesting meeting, again I'm not sure how much I can share so I'll leave it at that.
I can already tell this is going to be the biggest roller coaster yet. I know that no matter what; in the foster to adopt program there are ups and downs and like everything else in our lives it's going to be a long road....but for now we count our blessings and enjoy each day with our little ladies.

Besides all that, this morning I was a total wreck! My heart was racing, I felt like throwing up and I couldn't eat anything...I was so nervous taking both babies out. I guess I thought they were going to start screaming at the same time or I wasn't going to be able to open a door and we would get all snowed on. I don't know what is was exactly...I was just NERVOUS! But I'm happy to say I made it!!! The girls were great, except Lil' Mama had a mini meltdown at the dr's but she quickly recover...whew!

While we were gone A's aunt came over to babysit G. She brought our nephew N, N is 8 years old and a great little helper. G loves him, they played the Wii together. When I got home they were playing baseball, you should see G swing at the ball. He looks like a pro. I love that he really thinks he is playing. I'm definitely going to get it on video and post it for you all to enjoy.

I better get some sleep....oh yeah, after I feed the babies.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Need extra arms...

I can't believe I'm typing this but we now have 3 week old twin girls at our home. Yesterday about 9am I recv'd a call from our SW, she wanted to know if we would be interested in 9 week b/g CC twins. Of course I was but I had to call A first. He was a little hesitant but they are here now....however, they are identical twin girls and they are only 3 weeks old....yikes! They are so very cute and extra small. When dh and I first walked in their room, I almost went running the other way. I have to admit, I was scared. We're calling one Big Mama and one Lil' Mama....Big Mama is 4.4 lbs and Lil' Mama is 3.6....you see why I was freaking out. They look like baby birds, strong baby birds. And they are eating like champs. The funny thing is their RD at the hospital is a great client of mine, so if I have any feeding questions I can call her on her cell.
I'm not sure how much I can share with you but I think the state is going for termination of PR. I have no clue why. It's obviously a sad situation but I'm thankful that dh and I can help in anyway possible. If they happen to become available for adoption we will more than likely move forward.
If you are wondering, my little man G is doing wonderfully. He is a monster compared to them and he is of course too anxious to touch them but other than that it's not too bad. If they cry he goes running to the pnp, 'mama, bebee cry'...it's so cute. When I'm feeding them if G is not busy playing or reading his books he gets very jealous but I think in time all will be well.
This is going to be short....we've been busy and of course tired. Goodnight.....D

Monday, December 14, 2009

Two post in one day....

I thought I would fill you in on what I do during my spare time. I usually try to take on a project every season. I'm just the kind of person who hates to be bored. And besides, our home needs improvements! Since we've moved in we redid every room on the 2nd level. I hated the colors up there, the main floor wasn't as bad. We also ripped out the upstairs bathroom and did a complete makeover. I'll post pictures of that one day. I would right now but they are not on this computer. Anyhow, now that we are done with the upstairs my focus is the main floor and boy does it need it. Well, the dinning room was the worst! It needed my immediate attention. First of all the previous owners placed an off white rug underneath the table. I don't know why, the room has hardwood floors, I can't comprehend why they would do such a thing. Unfortunately we do not have the money to redo all the floors so we had to just replace the carpet which was the cheapest way to go. Besides, I'm hoping we move in the near future so why invest tons of money...right.
Since we had three children living here last year, the off white carpet took a beating and was gross. I gave up steam cleaning it, it just wouldn't come clean. So here are pics of the makeover....hope you like it!

This is exactly why no one should ever have off white carpet in the dinning room...what the h.ell where they thinking????



I never liked the chair rail. I thought the room was small enough and that just divided it more...



Gross...



I love the color!



Getting there...




We changed out the carpet ourselves...such weekend warriors!!!



Next, I had to chose a fabric for my chairs. Again, cream doesn't work with kids....oh and the fact that they are seven years old probably doesn't help.



My trusty tools...oh, I also used an electric staple gun, DEFINITELY a MUST HAVE!! Bet you like the kitchen knife...lol.



OMG, much better....I decided to go with the fun circles. This was a hard decision though, it took me a couple weeks. Then I thought, HELLO, as much money as I'm saving, if I don't like the pattern I can always change it. It cost less than $10 per chair.



Please excuse my garage...we blame the mess on each other. Anyhow, this was my next project. I wanted to add a piece of furniture for more storage. I found this at a local thrift store for $7.99, I love thrift shopping for old pieces of furniture. It makes me feel like I'm being "green" by recycling. So here's my buffet during it's transformation...btw, thanks Dad for helping me get it home!



I have to admit, this is the first piece of furniture I actually stained. I've always used paint because you can hide blemishes better. However once I finished sanding, A suggested that I stain it. To my surprise I took his advice, it looks good but in hindsight I should have sanded more carefully.



Here's the buffet in the room, looks a lot better and I LOVE the extra storage!



Another angle of the room. As you might notice, I need to paint the spackle where I lowered the curtain rod. And now that I look at it more, I think I need different curtains. I was going to make custom curtains but I started to tire out. I'm not totally happy and should have made some but I can always do that later....



I think this arrangement turned out great...especially because the selves were $10 and the glass vase was $.99 at Goodwill. ;) The rocks are from my yard and the flowers are from the arrangement on the buffet. And if you don't know I love elephants!!!



All done...whew!

Spoke with SW...

I called and talked with the SW who licensed us and whom I have met face to face. I explained to her that while she was on vacation another SW called us with a possible placement. And while I had turn that down, she mentioned she would change our status from wanting to foster two children to only one and that we were near the top of the 'list'. I asked her what exactly the list is...she told me that it's a list of FP's who are ready and have room in their homes for children. The list is arranged in alphabetical order, since our last name starts with a G we are at the top of the second page (it's three pages). I didn't ask but I wonder how many families are on the first page....yeah, this is driving my a little crazy.
You know there is nothing more I'd rather do than adopt again. Really I love my son so much, I know I have enough love for another child brought to us through the miracle of adoption. The only thing I wish ~ I wish I knew when, like pregnant women....KWIM. I have a friend pregnant with her second child, she knows he/she is coming in early Jan. My SIL is pregnant with my niece and knows she is coming March 13th. They can prepare, they know...for that I'm jealous...;)

On another note, G's BM made contact with our agency in Oct. Since then I have emailed her a few times and even sent some pictures. She is definitely a sweetie. I was surprised to hear that her and G's BF have reunited and are now friends. She even sent a picture of the two of them, I was very happy to see G's other half. He is a handsome man with sincere eyes like G. I'm happy for her because the way he treated her while she was pregnant was horrible. But G-d is forgiving and we should be too. He was young and very immature, maybe he has grown up and is sorry for his actions. Either way J has forgiven him, I just hope he never hurts her in that way again.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Winter wonderland...

It snowed Friday afternoon, I wanted to take G out but the snow kept falling and I hadn't bought snow boots yet. So off to the mall we went, we went to JCPenney and Sears with no luck (sold out). Finally I went to Payless and found his size. I'm surprised that the boots were $30 there...I obviously haven't shopped there in forever...that seemed high. Can you believe I found Keen Boots online for $35, only his size were sold out. Here are the Greyson's boots, they are so cute on him ~



We spent so much time looking for the boots that we didn't get to play in the snow Friday. I was bummed b/c I had to work Saturday, by Sunday the snow started to melt a bit but we were still able to go sledding. OMG, we had so much fun. My heart smiles when I think about it. Now every time we go outside G wants to play in the snow. He screams bloody murder when I make him come inside. I told A tonight that G is going to be the kind of boy who plays outside every chance he gets...here are some pics of our sledding adventure. We are going to try to go again this weekend.


















Just looking at these pictures brings tears to my eyes. I'm always going to be scarred by infertility but looking at how far we've come makes me so thankful.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Baby Mac...

RB, where did you go??? I can't read your blog and I miss you!!! Please give me an invite! I'm so sorry about the haters....I hope to hear from you soon!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Another sibling group....

As you may know I work from home, even so I never answer my home phone when I'm working. Yesterday I was busy working when I missed a call from B.ethany. Actually A listened to the msg when he got home from work and let me know about it. It was from a SW I'm not familiar with, anyhow the msg was basically a call for a possible placement. When I heard the msg my heart skipped a beat. The call came in about 4pm and by the time I called back it was 6pm...so needless to say I had to leave a msg. All night we thought about the child/baby we might have missed out on, so early in the morning I called again. This time the SW answered the phone, I was so excited!!! But once she started talking my excitement quickly faded. The placement was for two young boys. I didn't even have to talk to A about it, I know his answer. I told her that we would only like to foster one child at this time. She apologized, I apologized but what she said next was something new...she said that she was going to change our status to only wanting one child and that we would be near the top of the list. LIST? What list? She went on to explain there is a list of FP's who would like only one child and evidently we are near the top of that. Huh? First time I heard of this. I asked to speak with the placement SW that I know (the one who licensed us) to clarify all of this new information but she is on vacation until the 7th.
I have to admit I'm getting a little frustrated, especially when I hear from clients about people who are fostering through B.ethany. One client knows of a woman fostering a 3 month old baby girl and one client just told me her friend is fostering newborn twins. I know I'm not feeling jealous, I just want to know when we are going to get the call that's right for us. I hate that I feel like B.ethany is trying to guilt us into taking siblings. I don't understand how many times I have to tell them no before they get it.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Things I'm Thankful For....


G's cousins....he has so much fun with them! I love watching him interact with them, like he is such a big boy.

Thanksgiving was a couple days ago and while it's hard to be totally happy, there are things that I'm thankful for...and things that I do not want to take for granted. I want to take this time and say a prayer for my little brother Taylor, he passed away in 08' at the age of 18. He is greatly missed by our family. If you are a praying person please say a prayer for my dear mother. I know my parents will always feel an ache in their hearts but with prayer and faith they can and will still go on.

Lately, I've been looking at my husband when he doesn't know it...I'm taking in every morsel of his being. I never want to close my eyes and not see him...I have to admit there have been valleys in our relationship where I've taken him for granted. I seriously do not know what I did to deserve such an amazing man. We have been through more than the average relationship could ever handle, yet we persevere. For this I am so very THANKFUL!

As for my little guy, words can not describe how THANKFUL I am! Everyday I thank G-d for bring him into our lives. While I may not be a perfect mother, I am a good mother and I love my little boy to the ends of the earth. He makes each and every day a better day. My life was forever changed the day he entered my life...he is my heart, my soul...my everything!

I also want to give thanks for my parents. They have been so supportive throughout the years, I don't know if they fully understand how much we love and appreciate everything they do for us. They are wonderful to my husband and they are great grandparents to G. He loves them and they love and truly adore him! I'm so blessed and so thankful!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Cough much?

Oh my gosh, I feel like my head is going to pop off! My poor baby G has had a terrible cough for two weeks. I called our peds' office and the nurse said to keep an eye out for fevers and wheezing. He has had neither....thank goodness. Unfortunately we are now all sick (and tired). My husband has bronchitis and is now on an inhaler. I've been coughing non-stop. You know that irritating tickle in your throat, where each time you take a breath you can't help but have a coughing fit. I've been downing cough syrup, I'm afraid I'm going to overdose...lol. Really though it makes me sad that G has been suffering for two weeks. I have noticed that today he was coughing a lot less. I pray that he is on the road to recovery!
Since my husband was feeling so horrible this past weekend, I decided to make him chicken and vegetable soup. I'm so glad I did, it was great and hit the spot. We've all lost our appetite but this was so good and totally filling. I love cooking for my family.

I took a couple pictures of my soup. It was good!!!

What a big pot of soup...too bad it's all gone.



A and I had two bowls...yum!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Thanks....

Thanks for helping me put things into perspective...I was totally starting to freak out. It's weird too b/c when we first spoke with our SW, she made it clear it would take a while for a placement that fit our criteria. I think getting all those calls for sibling groups really started to throw me off. After all I would love to save all those children but I know we can't at this time.
I've decided to call our SW on Friday, just to touch base. We are definitely in no hurry, I've just become a little anxious lately. I can't wait to have another child. When I'm shopping I can't help but look at all the little girl outfits. And of course seeing all those little cuties at the play area in the mall doesn't help. But for now I'm going to chill out and go with the flow. Like Nikki said, sometimes a placement can take up to a year but it will happen.

Monday, November 16, 2009

What's going on???

I'm so confused and don't know who to talk to or what to do. If you have any words of wisdom please feel free to leave a comment.

A and I are in the process of fostering to adopt (we think). We kind of "fell" into fostering, if you are not familiar we HAD to get licensed when we became legal guardians/foster parents to our two nieces. They lived with us from May 08' to May 09'. We never really thought about fostering before but since we are licensed and really want to grow our family, I convinced A to attempt adopting our second child this way. Honestly we have different views on it but we have somehow come to a middle ground and decided to go for it.

A is worried about falling in love with a child only to have the child taken from us. This is understandable but I feel like we will have plenty of time to come to terms if a child does in fact go home. I'm also trying to make him understand that we kind of have to go into it with reunification in mind since that is the ultimate goal of our foster care system.
A also does not want a child older than G. He feels very strong that G should be the eldest. At first I did not understand this...this time around it does not feel vital for me to have a newborn. Don't get me wrong, I would love any child including a newborn, I just know that I can love an older child too. But then I listen to A and it makes sense. He feels like during the first year of G's life, we were more focused on our nieces. Which is true in some ways, but he was young, he will not remember that...A also really wants G to be the first to do many things, like play baseball or go to school. It's really sweet of him but not all that practical if/when adopting through FC. He also would like to provide foster care to only one child. So if you think about it, we are really limiting ourselves....one child, less than 21 months old.

When we talked with our placement social worker (SW), she stated that she will try to accommodate our needs but that it might take awhile. We have officially been waiting since the 1st of October, so it hasn't been all that long. The thing is....I'm afraid we made the placement SWer's mad. You see they called several times with sibling groups and I turned them down....as hard as that is...I did. For the last four weeks they have not called at all. The last call, I never returned b/c somehow I skipped the vm. It was for a sister sibling group, they were three and five. I honestly would have twisted A's arm to let him live here but like I said I somehow skipped the message and didn't get it for a few days. When I finally heard it, it was so many days later I didn't bother to call. Now Nothing!
I also have a second theory...maybe they are not mad, they just realize that Andre we do not want a sibling group.
I've been thinking about calling to clear up my concerns. Sometimes I feel like I wouldn't mind a sibling group, maybe I could convince A. After all we are older and we really want three or four kids so why not? We had three kids for a year and even though it was stressful, I know we could manage. The thing that I have to definitely keep in mind is that our decisions also effect my mother. She has watched G while I work since he was born and I know she would watch another child but two...not so sure.
In a nutshell, I want to call B.ethany but I also don't know how many more sibling groups I can turn down. I love my family and definitely want more kids, this seems to me like the obvious choice...now why can't A open his heart just a little more and not be so restrictive????

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

He makes me laugh!!!!

We went to the mall today. We were bored and needed to get out of the house. We went to the play area but G was not really in the mood to play. So we sat in the middle near Hollister and had some snacks. G was loving the music the store was playing and he was in a silly mood. Here is proof...he made me laugh so much today. I love him and will never get enough...


video

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Parenting...

Have I told you lately that parenting is hard...? I love my little man, no doubt about it but dang...there are days when I can't keep up or when I'm left wondering what's wrong with my little man? Let me break it down for you a little more.....

Things that can sometimes be stressful...

1. Whining....omg, if Handy Manny isn't on or The Mickey Mouse Club isn't on (he can be playing with a toy but needs it on in the background), then it's over!
2. If he is done with cartoons and mommy isn't paying 100% attention to G, then it's over!
3. If G is playing with a puzzle and he can't fit a piece in....well, then it's over!
4. If G all the sudden wants his shoes on and mommy can't put them on fast enough...it's over!
5. How about all the times he gets up on the couch, then wants to get down, then up again, then down...up, down, up, down, up, down...you get the picture...it's over.
6. In the mornings, if he doesn't want to eat in the dining room (he'd rather eat in the living room, just like his daddy with Law and Order on...I mean Handy Manny or Micky Mouse on) and it doesn't happen...yeah, it's over.
7. Oh what about getting ready for the day? G has to know what I'm doing at all times, if I take too long he cries. I've learned to get already in 15-20 minutes.
8. Have you ever folded fresh from the dryer clothes? They feel so warm and since you are folding them when they are still warm there are no wrinkles - except for the ones that your child creates...yeah, he sees a neatly folded stack of laundry and he feels the urge to DESTROY it! I've learned to fold REALLY FAST and to keep one eye on G. G the destroyer!
9. This is a rather new one but it's probably taking the most toll on us. G wakes up every night around 1 or 2am and cries until we go in his room. I can rock him forever but as soon as I try to put him down he pops up. It's like he has some sort of built in mommy and daddy radar. Then (like this morning) he is up at 6am. Needless to say we are tired!
10. G is at the age where he is testing his limits. I tell him no but he will still do whatever it is...while looking at me. It's like he is saying "what are you going to do about it" with his eyes. ARGH!
11. Do any of you have a toddler permanently wrapped around your ankles? Some days I can't walk b/c he wrapped his little arms around my legs so tight...."mommy up, mommy up". This usually happens when need to wash the dishes or make dinner.

Don't get me wrong I'm not complaining, I'm just letting you know the reality of my day/life and I wouldn't trade it for the world. However parenting is a lot tougher than I'd ever imagine. I give all mothers a shout out, keep up the good work! Now let's get to the awesome stuff....

1. I love when G wakes up and I go into his room and he greets me with the biggest smile. :) Sometimes I crack the door up a bit and play peek-a-boo with him, he loves it.
2. I love when he gives me a bear hug. He wraps his little arms around my neck so tight.
3. And his kisses...omg, he puckers up so cutely. Who could resist? I swear I kiss him a million times a day.
4. I love when he wants to relax he scoots into my lap and lays back on my chest.
5. Sometimes he'll lay his head on my should and go "awwwwwww".
6. Lately he has been pressing his forehead against mine and he rubs his nose on mine....I love it, I'm trying to teach him that is called Eskimo kissing!
7. I love looking into his big dark brown eyes. Actually I love just staring at his cute little face. He's perfect in everywhere...gosh, I'm tearing up just thinking about him. God is good!
8. I love that he tickles me and says, "tickle, tickle, tickle, dee"
9. The sound of his laughter makes my heart smile.
10. I love watching him explore the house and his toys. Just watching him figure stuff out is amazing.
11. I love that he loves to dance, I hope he never stops. Lately he is trying to clap on beat. I'll have to get it on video, maybe one day he is going to be in the music industry or a dancer.
12. How about if/when he gets hurt, he comes straight to me for a kiss. I love that my kisses make him all better!
13. I love love love the way he calls 'mommy' or daddee', it's so cute! Hearing him call me is definitely something I've long to hear forever...our dreams have come true.



These are just a few things that I will never take for granted. So there you have it, I have good and bad days but I'm loving every minute of it. I will never forget the heartache of IF but finally having a son has taken away so much of the pain, I am thankful that A and I never gave up on having children. I am a better/happier person because of G, I'm so proud of him and I always want him to be proud of me.


Edited to add:

AT TIMES REALITY HITS ME....I'M A PARENT!?!?!?! I'M A MOM!?!?! IT'S THE COOLEST THING EVER!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Halloween!

Since it was cold and wet outside last night we went to one of the local malls, where we met my cousin P and her two daughters K and A. There were quite a few stores handing out candy. G was in awe of all the kids and the costumes. Before we went we stopped at my parents for some pizza and pumpkin pie. My mom and dad were going to a costume party (not sure if they actually went) and had two clown costumes. So of course G seen them and had to try on the wig and shoes. He really didn't like the wig but we managed to get a good pic of him with it on and the shoes....lol :)
G didn't do to bad at the mall either. I say this b/c he didn't take a nap all day. So I thought for sure we'd get there and have to leave right away but nope...he made it! We had a lot of fun, there were some great costumes and all the kids seem to be having a ball.
We got home about 6:30pm and decided it wasn't to late to hand out candy. It was cold but I seen some kids outside on the way home, we only had 4 groups of kids come to the house. I felt bad for them so I gave them handfuls of candy, if I hadn't we'd have to much candy around the house. I'd probably end up with a cavity.;)

G at Grandma's house trying on her costume...



G showing off at Grrandma's house...the costume has little white mittens too but he would not keep them on. I figured the hat was pushing it enough. :)



Just getting to the mall...G was so apprehensive....



What's going on Mom?



G's cousins K and A.....G was suppose to be in this pic but he started crying and ran to me.



After a while G took off his hat too. We all thought it was funny that K was holding G's spider hand...lol. He looks a little confused.



G and his daddy...look at all the kids...OMG! It was busy!

Friday, October 30, 2009

We're so bummed....

Today is just icky! A took the day off so we could take G to a pumpkin patch and go on a hay ride but the weather is gross! It's actually not that cold just raining and gloomy. Tomorrow it's suppose to be in the 40's with more rain so I guess we have to go after Halloween. Yesterday A took G for a walk to our neighbors, he had a ton of leaves so A let G jump in them. The quality is not that great but I thought the picture was cute. To me it looks like G is trying to get out of them, he is kind of a neat freak so many being in a pile of leaves was not his thing...lol.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Wordless Wednesday....

My baby is getting so big....







Monday, October 19, 2009

Whazzzz up

Hi everyone, sorry about the long hiatus! I was just preoccupied with life...lol. Not much going on this way, just working and taking care of a very active 20 month old. We've been getting calls about placements but they are not what we can handle right now. I think I've turned down 4 sibling groups. Just to give you an idea one was for a 4 month old and an 18 month old, I can't imagine chasing a 20 month old and an 18 month old while holding a 4 month. Another was for a 3 year old girl and her 5 year old sister, this one the SWer left a msg on my cell phone but I accidentally skipped it and didn't get it for three days. I guess that wasn't meant to be. So we are getting some action just not what we want. I think if spring rolls around and we still don't have a placement we might discuss a sibling group, we'll see what happens.
BTW, A is trying to convince me to switch to our agencies domestic adoption program. It's the same one we use to adopted G but honestly I don't know where we would get the money. And after such a roller coaster ride with G's BM, I'm not sure I can handle being matched and having to wait it out again. But I guess that is also an option if things don't work out through Foster Care.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Talked with SWer...

I finally talked who our placement SWer, I'm relieved....it was just a misunderstanding, whew! All is good and N is coming next Sunday for the second time. From what I understand he is doing really well with the L's. I'm glad for him and hope it works out.



In other news we had a great weekend, we got together with some friends Saturday night to watch the Floyd Mayweather vs. Juan Marquez, Floyd won but it's was pretty boring. I was hoping that Juan would give him a good fight but no such luck. Even though the fight was a bust hanging out with our friends made it worth it. For now my friends...

Friday, September 18, 2009

Something's not right....

Last night we met N and he stayed the night for the first time. He seems to be a good kid but I also get the impression that he is a little thuggish. I'm not being judgmental, after talking with him, we realized that he likes to hang out in 'da hood'. In fact the school he goes to just had a kid get caught for taking a shot gun to school. Aside from all that, I liked him. He was very quite, respectful and he made his bed this morning to boot.
I thought I would break the ice a little and explain to him why and how we came about getting a foster home license. I didn't go into any details but I did tell him about my sister and the fact that we took in our nieces for a year. I also told him that since we had our license....why not help when we can. I told him about losing my 18 year old brother last year, and how I think that is driving me to want to help kids. I'm helping this boy in honor of my little brother. Sometimes I feel like I wasn't around enough for T, well...maybe this is a way for me to make up for that. After I told him about T, he briefly mentioned that his mother past away last year. He didn't go any further, the nosey part of me wanted to ask how but I didn't want to overwhelm him or make him uncomfortable. It must be hard enough bouncing around in the foster care system, let alone having to tell everyone your business. What impresses me, is that he 17, a senior in high school and no matter how uncomfortable he is - he has not ran away from 'the system'. I just hope that he can make it with the L's (foster family), at least until he graduates. He turns 18 in Feb. and if he does well the agency and the state will help him get $ for college. Not sure if that is the route he is going to take but at least he will have options.
On a side note....I don't want to believe it but I think our SWer lied to us. I don't not want to divulge what is going on at this time, I will once I speak to C. I put in a call to her early this morning, only to learn that she will not be in the office until Monday. Once I get everything straight, I'll post about it. I could go on a rant right now but I'm trying to give her the benefit of the doubt....we shall see.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Update....

A and I have decided to let a teenager stay the night every Sunday. It's a strange situation but we feel like we can help so we might as well. N is in a home right now that is not licensed, I didn't ask how and why he was placed in this particular home, I just know that he has to stay one night a week in a licensed home. Since the family he is living with right now lives about 5 minutes away it just works out. We meet N for the first time tomorrow, then he will stay the night every Sunday for the next 2-3 months. I have to admit, I'm a little nervous but I know that helping children is what I (we) want to do and this is temporary. We were also told that it would not interfere with any other placements that might be available to us. That's it for now, I'll let you know what happens tomorrow....I have to call his foster dad tonight.

Monday, August 31, 2009

Cowboys are brown too....

My grandparents (on my mother's side) were from Austin, TX and they loved buying their grand/great grand kids cowboys hats and boots. My grandparents have passed away but my grandfather actually got to meet G. And boy did he fall hard. He unequivocally loved G, I was truly amazed. I remember when he was dying he whispered to me that he love G with all his heart because he was my son. I will never forget those words. Anyhow, my grandfather would have loved to see G in a cowboy hat, A and I went to an indoor flea market Friday night and found him one. They had the most beautiful cowboy boots too but I didn't even try to put G's fat feet in them. As it is I call G - Spongebob Square Feet, omg they are the cutest little things but so dang FAT! Here are a couple pictures of G with his cowboy hat on....

Oh and as for the title my little nephew (who is mixed hispanic and AA) told my sister that "Cowboy are brown too..." My sister is weird and didn't like him wearing cowboy gear, that was his response to her asking him to take off his cowboy hat. I on the other hand embrace our Texas/Mexican heritage!


BTW, I know a couple of friends say that it's hard to get their babies to smile for pictures...G was the same way. Whenever I took a pic, he looked to mad and grumpy even though he wasn't. Now that he is older he is saying "cheese", these pics are proof of an overly cheesy smile....lmao. He is so dang cute!