Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Laid back Christmas....

We had such a laid back Christmas, which was nice! I didn't go anywhere b/c of the girls. My parents hosted Christmas at their house on Christmas Eve but we didn't even make it to that. There was about 40 people there, I was so afraid of the girls catching something. They had a wonderful time and can't wait for us to be able to bring the girls out soon. There is a lot of family waiting to meet them. On Christmas day A took G to his aunt's house and I stayed home with the girls. A called a couple times, I think he missed And I know G did, I heard pretty much as soon as they got there he was telling everyone "bye, bye." And "I wann mommy." I thought it was cute but to everyone else it was a little annoying. So A ended up coming home early, G didn't even get to open all his presents there. He sure did make out though and to think his birthday is in Feb., I have toy overload! Seriously, I don't know what to do with them all.

Can I ask all the mom's out there, how the heck to you keep up with all the little pieces or sets of toys? Maybe I'm just being lazy by putting everything in the toy basket, instead of making sure all the pieces are together and there....argh.

Here are a few pics...

Christmas eve

Christmas morning

He can get on it, now only if he can figure out how to pedal...btw, he kissed Tigger, too cute.

My big

He was so excited...

This is G's favorite gift. I knew he would like it b/c he loves the Wii bowling but geez!!! We played for two hours straight. He is so good at it.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Some down time...

A and G are out shopping right now. Maybe he is going to get something for me...really though, I don't need or want anything. I'm thankful for what I already have...

I thought I would share a pic of Skyla, just so you can see how small they are.

BTW, their names are Sophia Monet and Skyla Rose. I'm going to delete there names soon but I just wanted to share with you.

NIKKI, I tried to send you an email but it failed...what's your email addy????

And Eliza, thanks for the support. I miss you all but I just couldn't keep up and I felt like a bad friend. :(

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Santa Baby

G and I went to see Santa today. Can you believe this is the best picture....omg, he did not want to sit with Santa. You can also see my hand, I was trying to distract him with a candy cane. Oh day.

New diet...

So I stepped on my scale today and I lost 5lbs since the babies have been here. I needed to lose about 10 but this way is not healthy. I have an appetite I just can't eat...or when I do I don't eat a lot. I'm hungry right now and I still haven't had anything all day. I don't know what's going on...I can't put my finger on my nervousness/anxiety???
G and I are going out for a bit today. Since the girls pretty much just eat and sleep A has been doing great. Maybe getting out with my baby will make me feel better...

I just don't remember these feelings when we brought G home??? Any advice?

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

What's up doc?

The girls had a doctors appt today and they now weigh 5.1# and 4.1#, exactly a pound apart. We also had a visit with their BM and BF. It was an interesting meeting, again I'm not sure how much I can share so I'll leave it at that.
I can already tell this is going to be the biggest roller coaster yet. I know that no matter what; in the foster to adopt program there are ups and downs and like everything else in our lives it's going to be a long road....but for now we count our blessings and enjoy each day with our little ladies.

Besides all that, this morning I was a total wreck! My heart was racing, I felt like throwing up and I couldn't eat anything...I was so nervous taking both babies out. I guess I thought they were going to start screaming at the same time or I wasn't going to be able to open a door and we would get all snowed on. I don't know what is was exactly...I was just NERVOUS! But I'm happy to say I made it!!! The girls were great, except Lil' Mama had a mini meltdown at the dr's but she quickly recover...whew!

While we were gone A's aunt came over to babysit G. She brought our nephew N, N is 8 years old and a great little helper. G loves him, they played the Wii together. When I got home they were playing baseball, you should see G swing at the ball. He looks like a pro. I love that he really thinks he is playing. I'm definitely going to get it on video and post it for you all to enjoy.

I better get some sleep....oh yeah, after I feed the babies.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Need extra arms...

I can't believe I'm typing this but we now have 3 week old twin girls at our home. Yesterday about 9am I recv'd a call from our SW, she wanted to know if we would be interested in 9 week b/g CC twins. Of course I was but I had to call A first. He was a little hesitant but they are here now....however, they are identical twin girls and they are only 3 weeks old....yikes! They are so very cute and extra small. When dh and I first walked in their room, I almost went running the other way. I have to admit, I was scared. We're calling one Big Mama and one Lil' Mama....Big Mama is 4.4 lbs and Lil' Mama is see why I was freaking out. They look like baby birds, strong baby birds. And they are eating like champs. The funny thing is their RD at the hospital is a great client of mine, so if I have any feeding questions I can call her on her cell.
I'm not sure how much I can share with you but I think the state is going for termination of PR. I have no clue why. It's obviously a sad situation but I'm thankful that dh and I can help in anyway possible. If they happen to become available for adoption we will more than likely move forward.
If you are wondering, my little man G is doing wonderfully. He is a monster compared to them and he is of course too anxious to touch them but other than that it's not too bad. If they cry he goes running to the pnp, 'mama, bebee cry''s so cute. When I'm feeding them if G is not busy playing or reading his books he gets very jealous but I think in time all will be well.
This is going to be short....we've been busy and of course tired. Goodnight.....D

Monday, December 14, 2009

Two post in one day....

I thought I would fill you in on what I do during my spare time. I usually try to take on a project every season. I'm just the kind of person who hates to be bored. And besides, our home needs improvements! Since we've moved in we redid every room on the 2nd level. I hated the colors up there, the main floor wasn't as bad. We also ripped out the upstairs bathroom and did a complete makeover. I'll post pictures of that one day. I would right now but they are not on this computer. Anyhow, now that we are done with the upstairs my focus is the main floor and boy does it need it. Well, the dinning room was the worst! It needed my immediate attention. First of all the previous owners placed an off white rug underneath the table. I don't know why, the room has hardwood floors, I can't comprehend why they would do such a thing. Unfortunately we do not have the money to redo all the floors so we had to just replace the carpet which was the cheapest way to go. Besides, I'm hoping we move in the near future so why invest tons of money...right.
Since we had three children living here last year, the off white carpet took a beating and was gross. I gave up steam cleaning it, it just wouldn't come clean. So here are pics of the makeover....hope you like it!

This is exactly why no one should ever have off white carpet in the dinning room...what the h.ell where they thinking????

I never liked the chair rail. I thought the room was small enough and that just divided it more...


I love the color!

Getting there...

We changed out the carpet ourselves...such weekend warriors!!!

Next, I had to chose a fabric for my chairs. Again, cream doesn't work with kids....oh and the fact that they are seven years old probably doesn't help.

My trusty tools...oh, I also used an electric staple gun, DEFINITELY a MUST HAVE!! Bet you like the kitchen

OMG, much better....I decided to go with the fun circles. This was a hard decision though, it took me a couple weeks. Then I thought, HELLO, as much money as I'm saving, if I don't like the pattern I can always change it. It cost less than $10 per chair.

Please excuse my garage...we blame the mess on each other. Anyhow, this was my next project. I wanted to add a piece of furniture for more storage. I found this at a local thrift store for $7.99, I love thrift shopping for old pieces of furniture. It makes me feel like I'm being "green" by recycling. So here's my buffet during it's transformation...btw, thanks Dad for helping me get it home!

I have to admit, this is the first piece of furniture I actually stained. I've always used paint because you can hide blemishes better. However once I finished sanding, A suggested that I stain it. To my surprise I took his advice, it looks good but in hindsight I should have sanded more carefully.

Here's the buffet in the room, looks a lot better and I LOVE the extra storage!

Another angle of the room. As you might notice, I need to paint the spackle where I lowered the curtain rod. And now that I look at it more, I think I need different curtains. I was going to make custom curtains but I started to tire out. I'm not totally happy and should have made some but I can always do that later....

I think this arrangement turned out great...especially because the selves were $10 and the glass vase was $.99 at Goodwill. ;) The rocks are from my yard and the flowers are from the arrangement on the buffet. And if you don't know I love elephants!!!

All done...whew!

Spoke with SW...

I called and talked with the SW who licensed us and whom I have met face to face. I explained to her that while she was on vacation another SW called us with a possible placement. And while I had turn that down, she mentioned she would change our status from wanting to foster two children to only one and that we were near the top of the 'list'. I asked her what exactly the list is...she told me that it's a list of FP's who are ready and have room in their homes for children. The list is arranged in alphabetical order, since our last name starts with a G we are at the top of the second page (it's three pages). I didn't ask but I wonder how many families are on the first page....yeah, this is driving my a little crazy.
You know there is nothing more I'd rather do than adopt again. Really I love my son so much, I know I have enough love for another child brought to us through the miracle of adoption. The only thing I wish ~ I wish I knew when, like pregnant women....KWIM. I have a friend pregnant with her second child, she knows he/she is coming in early Jan. My SIL is pregnant with my niece and knows she is coming March 13th. They can prepare, they know...for that I'm jealous...;)

On another note, G's BM made contact with our agency in Oct. Since then I have emailed her a few times and even sent some pictures. She is definitely a sweetie. I was surprised to hear that her and G's BF have reunited and are now friends. She even sent a picture of the two of them, I was very happy to see G's other half. He is a handsome man with sincere eyes like G. I'm happy for her because the way he treated her while she was pregnant was horrible. But G-d is forgiving and we should be too. He was young and very immature, maybe he has grown up and is sorry for his actions. Either way J has forgiven him, I just hope he never hurts her in that way again.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Winter wonderland...

It snowed Friday afternoon, I wanted to take G out but the snow kept falling and I hadn't bought snow boots yet. So off to the mall we went, we went to JCPenney and Sears with no luck (sold out). Finally I went to Payless and found his size. I'm surprised that the boots were $30 there...I obviously haven't shopped there in forever...that seemed high. Can you believe I found Keen Boots online for $35, only his size were sold out. Here are the Greyson's boots, they are so cute on him ~

We spent so much time looking for the boots that we didn't get to play in the snow Friday. I was bummed b/c I had to work Saturday, by Sunday the snow started to melt a bit but we were still able to go sledding. OMG, we had so much fun. My heart smiles when I think about it. Now every time we go outside G wants to play in the snow. He screams bloody murder when I make him come inside. I told A tonight that G is going to be the kind of boy who plays outside every chance he are some pics of our sledding adventure. We are going to try to go again this weekend.

Just looking at these pictures brings tears to my eyes. I'm always going to be scarred by infertility but looking at how far we've come makes me so thankful.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Baby Mac...

RB, where did you go??? I can't read your blog and I miss you!!! Please give me an invite! I'm so sorry about the haters....I hope to hear from you soon!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Another sibling group....

As you may know I work from home, even so I never answer my home phone when I'm working. Yesterday I was busy working when I missed a call from B.ethany. Actually A listened to the msg when he got home from work and let me know about it. It was from a SW I'm not familiar with, anyhow the msg was basically a call for a possible placement. When I heard the msg my heart skipped a beat. The call came in about 4pm and by the time I called back it was needless to say I had to leave a msg. All night we thought about the child/baby we might have missed out on, so early in the morning I called again. This time the SW answered the phone, I was so excited!!! But once she started talking my excitement quickly faded. The placement was for two young boys. I didn't even have to talk to A about it, I know his answer. I told her that we would only like to foster one child at this time. She apologized, I apologized but what she said next was something new...she said that she was going to change our status to only wanting one child and that we would be near the top of the list. LIST? What list? She went on to explain there is a list of FP's who would like only one child and evidently we are near the top of that. Huh? First time I heard of this. I asked to speak with the placement SW that I know (the one who licensed us) to clarify all of this new information but she is on vacation until the 7th.
I have to admit I'm getting a little frustrated, especially when I hear from clients about people who are fostering through B.ethany. One client knows of a woman fostering a 3 month old baby girl and one client just told me her friend is fostering newborn twins. I know I'm not feeling jealous, I just want to know when we are going to get the call that's right for us. I hate that I feel like B.ethany is trying to guilt us into taking siblings. I don't understand how many times I have to tell them no before they get it.