I feel like I'm losing control. Like my life is so disorganized. Am I lazy? Am I crazy? I don't know but if feel like A and I are hamsters on one of those little wheels that goes round and round. Will we ever get off of it? I'm not trying to drum up a pity party but are we ever going to catch up with our bills or get ahead????? I'm hoping and praying it's this year.
After all we've been through so much infertility treatments and that's not cheap. We've also just adopted...I feel we will be forever in debt. I imagine all the money we would have if we had been fertile....I know money is not everything but it helps!
Ok back to the matter at hand, my house and my life are out of control. I can't keep up with the housekeeping. It sucks! I'm glad that we are able to provide a home for my nieces but geez...I never knew how much parenting takes out of ya!
Have you ever gotten so far behind you just feel like moving? That's right, I said it...I want to move! I want a new clean house. I know it'll probably get just as messy as this one but right now I'm enjoying my fantasy new clean house. Where everything has a place and there is nothing but sunshine pouring through the windows. Aaahhh, seems so sweet.
I remember when A and I were buying this house, I was attracted to the character and the fact that all the houses on the block were different. Not so cookie cutter, kwim. Well, six years later and one project after another later, I want out!
Besides A would love two more children. Can you believe it....two more. I love him dearly but I'm thinking one more, we'll see. I think we will move before we add to our family. So I have to make cuts. I'm thinking of getting rid of cable. I'm online all the time anyhow. It is nice to have Sex and the City playing in the background though....lol. Who needs TV, right?
Anyhow, here's to the New Year and to following all of our dreams.
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