Huuuummmm....

I guess no one enjoyed the little video of G...:(

G's new trick...

I can't believe my baby is getting to old. He is going to be 1 in Feb...OMG, time flies! So this is the cutest new trick G has taught himself...

Oh Christmas tree..

I just got done wrapping all of the kid's presents. It's going to be fun for us for the first time in 8 years. It's costing a whole TON more but it'll be worth it. It's so weird how your emotions change so much after a baby. Whether you give birth to a child or you have adopted your child...you are different. Your emotional well being has been changed forever; for the better! I'm serious, I look forward to all of my IF friends to either have a baby or adopt a baby. There is nothing on earth as special or worth all the tears, fears and years. I know I can't speak for everyone but I can say, I love being a mother. It's hard work but the most amazing, fulfilling part of my life.

These are a couple gifts I can't wait for the kids to open ~

Trouble ~ does anyone remember this game? It was my grandmother's favorite. When we (my sister/brother) stayed the night with her, we always played. I'm good, can't wait to kick T's and K's butt!!!!!

The Bratz Laptop ~ It's a toy but there are a lot of learning games on there, I know T is going to love it. She loves school and learning so much....I believe it's going to be beneficial to her.

MP3 Player ~ For K, I almost bought her the Shuffle but A didn't think a 6 year old should have something that cost some much. So she got some off brand MP3 player. I know she will enjoy it, she loves music and can totally sing her little booty off. I should video tape her one day, she's a real entertainer I tell ya.

3-n-1 Tonka Truck ~ This is so cool, I can't wait to see G play with this. Here's a picture of it...

More Foster Care talk.....

It's getting late and I'm still doing laundry. I just finished more paperwork for the agency. Yeah, everything was suppose to be done but then SW called and said there is something "new" we had to fill out. It was 4 pages of questions...more questions. But this was all about our income and debt. What a PIA! A and I got that done tonight and will drop it in the mail tomorrow. That better be it! I'm exhausted....I want to be approved already. After all we have had our nieces since May and I know they are not going to take them. Hopefully our SW started typing up our homestudy and once she gets this last bit of info she will be able to send it off to the state. She said it could take a week to two weeks before we are approved.
Right now, the license will only allow us to care for our nieces. If we decide in the future that we would like to adopt through the state then we will have to get it amended. So that's that, for now.

On another note, I talked to the SW about volunteering. I would like to provide haircuts or styles to the children in the agencies care. There is probably something already established but I would like to contribute if I can. Sometimes, I feel like I should be doing more with my life.

Oh and thanks to Reggie (a new friend)...look at my new siggy!

Rough couple days

G has been really fussy the past couple days. He tugs at his right ear every now and then so I'm thinking ear infection.?.? I'm going to call the dr tomorrow. It's been so cold lately that I hate taking him out. Today it was in the teens, {{{{burr}}}}...I think the low tomorrow is suppose to be 6 degrees. It could also be the fact that he is getting 4 teeth at the same time but Oragel/Tylenol doesn't seem to help. I just love my baby bear so much and I hate that he only seems happy when he is stuck to my hip. Maybe tomorrow we will go to the mall so he can play in the play area.

Tonight I went to one of the local hospitals in a blizzard to get an MRI. I have a pituitary gland tumor and every 6 months I have to get it monitored. So in the next few days, I'll get the results of that...joy.

I love keeping this blog updated, I've said it before it's theraputic. But lately I've been thinking that maybe I should use some of my internet time to exercise. I've gained a few pounds lately. If I don't start now, I'm not sure I'll be able to control it later. Last winter I did 100-200 sit ups a night and by the time I went to FL my stomach didn't look too bad. I'm built like an olive on a tooth pick, skinny arms and legs with chubby midsection. I also did a lot of lunges, my butt was nice and tight...lol. I think is has shrunk, maybe now I'm shaped more like Tasmanian Devil...A always said if we have a baby he would be a line backer (pretty broad shoulders)....thanks, right? Men...argh! Oh, I wish I had the energy!

Some Christmas pics....

Signature?

Can someone please tell me how to add a more personal signature to my post?

OMG, the house is so quiet...

I'm in between clients and thought I'd jot a couple things down. It's really quiet here, not of the norm lately. A went to K and T's (for those who don't know they are our nieces who now live with us) Thinking Map Night at their school. Plus he has the baby, Go Boy....he is a brave one I tell ya.
Anyhow, we are starting to think more seriously about our next move....or next cycle,argh, it's hard to even say that here in bloggy world. Yeah, I can't believe I'm typing this but we are going to do a frozen embryo transfer next year. We have a lot going on, right? It's our fun way of keeping you all guessing.

We have 6 blastocyst in the cryopreservation at Dr. Young's office. I hate to think of them being disposed of and A does not want to donate them. So we are going to use them. I've done this quite a few times and I can't believe we are going to do it again. I wish I could say that I'm excited or that I feel positive about this but I can't. I've been let down by my uterus too many times. So please excuse the pessimistic attitude. There are plenty of things in life that I'm positive about but IVF is not one of them...at least IVF for me.

It pangs me to think that A is all excited about this and can't wait to get started. I just don't get it, does he really think it can happen? You would think after all we've been though he would have the same attitude as me. Is it because it's not his body....not his uterus rejecting all those little embryos...um?

Well, it's only December things won't pick up in this arena for a few months. But I just thought I'd put it out there to represent all my infertile sista's. We need to come together and support one another. If you are the same jacked up boat, give me a holler.

Photo contest?????

My dad is so cute. He sent a newspaper clipping home with A the other day. There is a Baby of the Year Contest. My dad thinks we should enter G. He is even going to pay the entry fee....so I've been looking through our more recent pictures of G. I found a couple but a lot of the time people say, "oh not that one"...or "keep looking." What do you think of these, I'm confused....

My little ham.

Isn't he one of the prettiest little boys you have ever seen? Someone asked me if I wrap his hair up like this often....um no, it's his shirt that got stuck on his head or should I say stuck on his hair...lol. He grabbed the shirt to yank it all the way off and somehow just laid like this, so cute that little boy!

Winter blast.

I hate winter (not really)! It sometimes feels like I'm trapped in the house. For the past two winters I have gotten PT jobs outside of the house. Well this year we have G so there is no need to get a PT job, I'm busy enough...but now I really need to stay warm and toasty. G is not fragile, he has not been overly sick but he does get this really nasty runny nose. And for all you that don't visit freezing temperture climates, sucking in that cold air can hurt. Could be b/c I have asthma but my lungs burn and I don't want to expose G to that pain so young. I was watching the news today and we are expected to get 10.5" of snow by Wednesday morning....greeeeaaaat! So I, well I mean WE are hibernating....yup, we didn't go anywhere today and I plan on staying home all day tomorrow too! I better go make sure we have clean sweat pants...lol.

BTW, the SWer didn't come over Friday b/c we were hit with a winter blast all weekend. She is from Oregon and is not use to driving in the snow. Whimp! Just kidding it was awful, I'm glad she did not come out. So the home visit is going to be this Friday then we are done and just wait for the states approval!

Foster care social worker...

She is finally back in the office and she called me today to set up our last home visit. But guess what she couldn't find her planner, so she will call tomorrow or Friday. I'm like ok already, let's get this over with. I did get to ask her what the next step is....she will then be able to write up the "report" on us and send it in to the state. She said after that it should only be approx. 2 weeks and then we will be licensed, finally I'm beginning to see light at the end of the tunnel. This has been a long road. We had to take Pride classes, which teach you how to be a good foster parent. We've had to learn CPR, I'm actually thankful for this b/c I learned how to give CPR to an infant if need be (fingers crossed that we will never have to use this). I'm just so glad it's coming to an end. I hope we get everything submitted before our medicals and drug screenings expire. Yeah, they used the ones we had to get for our adoption. I think we had them done in January so we are pushing it (they are good for a year).
Anyhooo....that's our update. Not to much to get excited about but we are getting there!! When we get licensed I'll be doing cart wheels for sure!