I'm bald headed....

Just had to let you all know, I'm bald. I did it Cilla...I know you told me not to but I chopped my hair off. I don't regret it yet. It takes me 5 minutes to do and that in itself makes it worth it.
I got the bug up my butt Tuesday night after my hair was looking mop like. Since I'm a stylist myself I couldn't go around looking a hot mess all summer. So I decide it was time for a drastic change. I'm the type of person once I make up my mind I want it right then right there. So I called a couple of my friends but they were busy. I ended up at a local salon with a stylist I didn't know. It's fun sometimes to go and be a client. I pretend I have no clue about haircuts all the while I'm watching the stylists every move....lol. This girl looked at me like I was crazy when I showed her pictures of Rihanna. But once she realized I was serious she went to town. My hair looks awesome, she did a really great job. I'll probably go back to her for touch ups. Since I don't have an pics of myself I'll post a picture of Rihanna...my hair is really similar. In fact a couple of friends have been calling me RiRi....very funny right?


This is what I want to look like....she's cute right!?!?



I'll have Andre take a picture of me today and I post it later.

I needed some lipstick but what do ya do??? And I think I'm going to let the sides grow just a tad.



I know it's funky and edgy but it really is so easy to do!!!

A little MIA.....

We've been so busy around the house I haven't had much energy to get online. But I've missed e/o! After this post I'm hoping to catch up with all my bloggy friends. So what's new in our lives....huuummmm.....lots!

Here's is our 'To Do List'...well it's mostly A's. However, I was his biggest cheerleader and I also had to keep G out of his hair.

1. Praise God
2. Cut Lawn (we have a big yard)
3. Order/pick up stone and mulch
4. Install front door as well as the storm door
5. Complete brick wall
6. Plant Hostas
7. Gather all junk to go in dumpster (we went in on a big dumpster w/a neighbor)
8. Change wheel barring and brakes on Honda
9. Cook out/spend time with family
10. Cut J's lawn (A cuts his aunts lawn too)
11. Work on commercial lawn mower (this is an $8,000 lawn mower than Jeremy gave to him...was not running but it's very close to running now....YAY!)
12. Fix hole in bathroom wall
13. Put cabinet together and move to bathroom
14. Open pool

As you can see A got most of this list done. We went to church and praised God but I didn't cross it off b/c we need to continue praising God everyday! Oh course I helped him with a few of these things. In fact Monday I woke up and pretty much couldn't walk. A was laughing at me and said I can't hang with the big dog.

All weekend I was on G duty and grill duty. I made ribeye, bbq ribs and chicken on the grill. We ate really good. Overall it was a great weekend. A is a go getter, me on the other hand I like to take things slow but this weekend I kept myself busy. I think mainly b/c it was Memorial weekend. I didn't even go to T's grave site. I just couldn't. My mom and dad did, they put flowers at his and my grandparents grave sites. I'm hoping to build up enough strength to go this weekend. This is a rough summer. Best thing to do is stay busy.

Here are a couple of pics from the mountainous weekend we had....












This is the door without the storm door. As you can tell it was late when A finally got it hung. What a job! He is my Handy Manny! Gotta love him and those black socks...lol! I'm going to take a picture in the daylight now that the storm door is hung too. It looks awesome.



FINALLY...here is the door with the storm door put on. Now I need to add changing the light and powerwashing the porch and walk way to our 'To Do List'.

Mother's Day....

Mother's Day this year was filled with joy and sadness. I experienced a joyful Mother's Day for the second time...oh what a blessing! It still amazes me how one little person can fill such a deep void. A sadness that lived in my heart for nearly 8 years, I will never forget the pain each Mother's Day brought to me. While so many mother's were enjoying the day, I was heartbroken and my arms were empty.

That all change in Feb. 08. G was born for us. He is the love of my life and I'm so thankful to be his mommy. I know this time of year must be hard for his BM but since we do not have contact there is no way I can let her know she is and always will be my hero.

Lately G has been giving me bear hugs, this just warms my heart. He wraps his little arms around my neck and squeezes...it's an unbelievable feeling! I also love to hear him yell out 'Mama' or 'Mommy'....it's like music to my ears. There really is no love like a love between a mother and a child, I love him with every ounce of my being. I am so proud to be his mother!

So for those of you who are already mother's congratulations. No matter how you became a mother....Happy Mother's Day. I'm still in awe that I'm a mother...

And for those of you still waiting...I pray that you find peace. I anxiously wait right along side of you. When your child finds his/her way to you; you will never want to take a day of that wait back. I for one would not change a thing about my journey. All the heartache, all the years of tears...all of it was so we would find G. For that I wouldn't change a thing!


My two boys ~



This is the best pic of G and I on Mother's Day. He was into everything but me....lol.



My baby!

An Angel looking down....

Happy Birthday Dear Brother....

Happy 19th little brother. You are forever in our hearts.




I'll be back to post more pics. We celebrated today with a few of Taylors' close friends. I'm emotionally drained, so not sure I'll be back tonight. I'm so glad I took the day off work, it was nice to see his friends and share stories of my little brother

5/9/09 Update ~

Admittedly I was a little nervous going to my mom's house on Taylor's birthday but it was more than I imagined. His friends that came were so caring and had so many fun stories to share about Taylor. He was/is very loved. You see I didn't get to know a lot of his friends b/c the big age difference btw us (15 years). Most of the kids in this picture are in their late teens early twenties. They told us they continue to miss Taylor and thinking of him is like thinking about breathing....it just comes so natural. That touched my heart. I truly believe that some of these kids will keep in contact for years to come, my mom looks forward to seeing them. It helps to keep Taylor's memory alive.

Sitting around sharing stories of Taylor.



We all signed his cross again. It was placed at the scene of the accident. A couple guys brought it to my mom's so she could put it in his garden, it's called Taylor's Place. We all signed it again. It's almost been a year so some of the signatures are fading.



Taylor's Place

I'm going to miss them....

Here's to wordless Wednesday....

Finally..

Here are some pics of the bedroom now. The girls have been sharing this bed the last couple weeks. In my last post I mentioned momentum....well, it's gone! I should have posted this a week ago. Anyhow, this is our guest bedroom. We might move our computer back to that bare corner but A is not in the mood to move it. And besides, not sure if I want to go through all the hassle if we are planning on adopting in the fall or spring. This will eventually be G's bedroom. The blue will be good for him. Anyhow, the girls are pretty much moved out. Official moving day is all set for Friday.


Quite a difference....